Anticipation

One of the things I've learned in the past few weeks is that when you really really really don't want a specific date to arrive, it comes very quickly! Elijah's surgery is in just over three weeks (not that I'm counting), and I'll be honest...most of the time I am not dealing with that very well. I often sit down to write a post but can think of nothing but anxious and worrisome things to write about, so I head to the kitchen and cook instead! :)

I have a few constant reminders in my everyday life telling me that everything will be ok. I need to hold tightly to those things, but sometimes it's easy not to do that. The anticipation of this surgery is a totally new experience for me. I hate everything about it. And since Elijah isn't experiencing any physical symptoms like he was before his last two, it's easy to convince myself that he's just fine. That he doesn't really need it.

But he does! And he will be in good hands. The best hands! And I just have to find peace with the fact that we have done everything humanly possible. The rest is nothing we can control!

Ok, so now that you all know how crazy I am, I can update you on the "normal" things that are going on! Elijah is coughing a bit still from last week's sickness. Sammy woke up this morning with a new sickness. He looks so tired and worn out, poor guy. :( The weather is finally GORGEOUS. I'm tired, always so so tired. Dan is starting to work more at the dropzone, which is both good (money) and bad (we miss him). Oh, and Dan and I got out for our anniversary last weekend despite boy sickness! That's about all for now. Thanks for checking in!